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Jul. 21st, 2009 @ 07:47 pm hi!
i am at syounis.blogspot.com now. see you there!
theres beauty in the break down
Apr. 9th, 2002 @ 11:09 pm another day..another lesson learned
So I am a little frustarated right now. In the last two days my trust has been majorly violated twice. It makes me wonder if I am just a person who people take so lightly that my emotions dont constitute real emotions. Whatever. Just because I am chipper and am not like every other fuckin clone walking this earth that does not make you better than me. Oh and for all of you that throw out that individual bull shit and then act too cool for the world please stop. one day we all eat our words and if you want to eat shit that is fine. Sigh. I am sad that I had to write something so negative but it was necessary for me to remember for future referance.

I pulled a roxie today and deleted almost my whole buddy list. (thanks rox, that idea inspired me) there are too many people on there that give me negative energy every time I talk to them and therefore I just got rid of them. That easy, who knew.

Hmm and now to a happier note. The rest of this week is mad busy but should be mad fun regardless. Come to the take back the night rally tomorrow and to the vagina monologues either Friday or Saturday, you will not be disappointed! I am so proud of the womens issues forum at oakland and all the amazing amazing work the girls have done. Woo hoo!
theres beauty in the break down
Mar. 20th, 2002 @ 09:53 pm get ready for some mad sappiness
today was a totally excellent day. i had three super productive conversations which were actually meaningful. i am making a renewed commitment to my friends and to be a better human being. lately, i have really been strewing into negativity and just in general a bad approach and attitude to life. i would like to go into the whole we have it better than 98% of the world but i think everyone knows that and there is no point in reitterating the same old rhetoric. but i dont know....if we were to die today would we have told the people we loved that we loved them? would we have regretted not making certain changes in our lives? would we be happy with how we were living our lives? there is always something more we could be doing but we hold back. let us not hold back. we have all this love inside of us that we can share and spread. lets not take that with us when we die but let it spread like dandeloin seeds and pollonate even the driest and most hardened up hearts. i love you all and may sunshine follow all of you wherever you go.
theres beauty in the break down
Mar. 10th, 2002 @ 08:58 pm 21 Things I Want in a Lover
do you derive joy when someone else succeeds? do you not play dirty when engaged in
competition? do you have a big intellectual capacity but know that it alone does not
equate wisdom?
do you see everything as an illusion? but enjoy it even though you are not of it?
are you both masculine and feminine? politically aware? and don't believe in capital

these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer

do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that loving someone can actually feel like
freedom? are you funny? la self-deprecating? like adventure? and have many formed

these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
these are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

I'm in no hurry I could wait forever
I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
there are no worries and certainly no pressure
in the meantime I'll live like there's no tomorrow

are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week? up for being experimental?
are you athletic? are you thriving in a job that helps your brother? are you not addicted?

...curious and communicative...
theres beauty in the break down
Feb. 18th, 2002 @ 03:24 pm remember addiction?
How do I know
if thats what I feel
if I think of you
at odds time of the day
when I long
to see your face again
and I if I want to bring
down the stars for you
if I want to share
in your every joy
and see your every
wish come true
is that addiction?
If I think of you
Smile when your gone
If I long for your
Touch when youre not here
If I can still remember
The first day I saw you
And I want and I want and I want
To voice those secrets
inside my heart
is that wrong?
theres beauty in the break down
Feb. 18th, 2002 @ 03:13 pm I PROMISE
To keep loving you even when its hard
To hold you when it hurts
To be honest
To always see you a new
To listen and talk
To be affectionate
To appreciate you
To help you become a better person
To allow you to help me
To keep trying
To do everything I can to make you happy
Because quite honestly I love you
theres beauty in the break down